Friday, December 22, 2006

That girl

That girl

She walks into a room
Bright eyes
Warm smile
She has it all together
She is loved
She is clam
Her world doesn't seem to be melting beneith her feet
Or perhaps it is
In the way that people feel her peace
They see her love

That girl

She walks in proud with a man by her side
She prays at night after he falls to sleep by her side
Then dreams of a wedding in black and white
Her heart on her sleeve
Her life in her hands
Broken she goes
A smile on her face

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Overwhelmed by grace

Today, as I walked through the rain I realized something...

While the rain may pour across this small rushed city
My heart can find shelter in the overhangs of your grace
Your grace that surpasses
All that is spoken
All that is done
All that is thought
So, while the rain may dampen my hair and clothes
It reminds me of your grace that flows from the heavens to quench my parched soul

Friday, December 1, 2006

Making a decision

There are many moments in life when you make the choice to put God first or others or even yourself
It's a conscious decision, whether we want to admit it at the time or not.
You feel it in your gut, and suddenly things of His nature start to hurt
They start to dig under your skin
At times it's hard to decipher one voice from another
The voice you want to hear, and the voice that won't be quiet

In life there are moments where I choose to follow God or ignore his quiet request
He waits patiently for me to come back to him
While I struggle to push away
It take more energy to push away yet it feels less vulnerable than letting go
There is a moment in my life where I need to make the steadfast decision that choosing to follow God is worth losing everything I feel that I have worked towards.

I am scared
I am angry
I am nervous

I want to bury my past but my mind is not deep enough
I want to walk toward God with a clear mind, but this mill stone is too heavy
I want to ignore every message, every study, every T.V. show I've seen

But most of all I want to grow and walk with my God who is so much bigger than I can comprehend.
A God that knows how scared I am to lose what I feel is a gift from Him
A God that knows that I am angry at Him, but mostly myself
A God that knows I am nervous to let Him work in my life